I continue to hope and pray to the heavens, I beg them for their mercy. If I am blessed with you, I would die a hundred deaths to save you...pray to a thousand Gods, asking them to spare you from this crippling fear. If you grow and the fear begins to hold you, becomes your gravity, I promise to always hold your hand through the panic. I would never leave you to navigate alone...I know all too well, the consequences of the darkness and the vise grip hold of loneliness. I would do anything, even sell my soul, to prevent you from living and feeling the same as me.
Monday, August 24, 2009
i am asphalt
my skin crawls...withdrawal pains
itching. shivering. kicking.
agitation...void of emotion.
i feel, i am drying up inside out.
close to evaporation, thin air.
my knees are still bleeding,
long i prayed to be saved.
i've been stolen and strapped
in the saddle of soggy nights.
riding blind through the fog
the gray has overcome me.
Monday, August 3, 2009
to escape misery recruiters
thoughts steal away hours
envisioning a different life
in a place complete
a place unlike here
where you will find
no cold hearts
no cold hands
no vacant memories
a place where you feel alive
a place where reality
isn't walking amongst the dead
while their disease engulfs you
Sunday, August 2, 2009
through time
lost the ability to feel you
hear your sound, taste you
rope burn without
the feeling of being tied
a nostalgic thought
a memory with weakening life
an old conversation
in a lost language
an ancient story
turning my heart to stone
and my love to dust
like a convict
i want to slap you...
my foolish thoughts
are tangled around
this impulsive and
mildly violent action
believing it could
somehow change
everything...
an ironic catalyst
for shaping a positive
and fresh perspective
love emulates
the appearance of
our summer's sun...
never showing for more
than a few days at a time
and if clouds were loneliness
...it's been a cloudy summer
rain, thunder, very little lightening
absolutely no pattern...
no regularity can be found
our unpredictable sunshine
seems preoccupied with
burning california down
and drying up texas
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