words are all i have now

i don't believe the word i would use is easy, but it sure don't seem hard.
tossing my love away in silence like skipping rocks across my bare skin.
swiping your leg at my ankles to topple me over so i fall fast and heavy.
i will pick my bruised face up off the pavement and wipe off my vintage dress.
walk down the sidewalk as if we don't know one another; morph into strangers.
but my words will be written and my heart's voice will certainly be heard.
plan to endure the words of my pitiful heartache until they're diminished,
my words are all i have now, the only medium i have of expressing my heart.
if you care not to have my words exist than don't sip your coffee at this site.
you have walked through the walls of my heart and left their chambers vacant.
you let me slip away into the silence of words that couldn't be spoken and
i forgot to let you know that you made me happy, i have learned my lesson, but
silence pushed me so far away that my heart will never carry the same rhythm.
in your mind this is all my fault and you tried very hard to make things work
and i will give you that because i never claimed i was a bowl of cherries...

silence kills

this new sadness is tearing out my gut,
warm skin, dripping with salty tears.
mornings without your arms to hold me.
lonely, loveless winter nights ahead.
it's my fault you drew the gun so fast,
but your finger pulled the trigger.
now my heart is sprayed on the walls.
how many mornings shall i wake crying?
pillow soaked with nightmarish reality.
how long until my heart understands...
...that you no longer live there?
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