heartbreak

gash, wide open,
i bleed in your absence.
your presence churns,
my stomach erupts.
our lost love
whips me like slaves,
crying for freedom
from undue shackles.
my heart labors with
memories of you,
still haunting me
like a ghost.

-2008

cold, dark night

spinning out of control causing destruction
defenses tangle thoughts, a web of confusion
palms certainly read this faulty seduction.
unfortunate hearts forced into silent seclusion

city limits have locked memories out of touch.
naked, lost in a moment of the wildest passion.
patient flesh craves your fingertips too much
loveless abuse has always been my fashion.

like this dark, cold night I will continue falling
tripped up by your promise under shooting stars,
delusions of your heartache now silently calling.
sour hopes, scraped knees, bruises and scars.

there has been no truth found in simple wishes.
small bones still aching with burning hot desire.
longing to feel the warmth of fabled fairytale kisses.
sweet flesh now burned and left, ashes in a cold fire.

our truth: we will never know

Old saline rivers of lost love have been damned.
Confusion still arrested in time………….
……….................………….…..but I'll take my bow.
Curtain will always fall on a frequency jammed.

Picking apart the stitches that held us together,
…consistent silence, permanent silence…
……………..deafening silence………….
I'll just let them unravel into whatever….

Choke on your unsaid words…..
Lord knows they devoured me.

-2008

murder my heart

there are still nights

my heart is tortured by you

tears accompany nightmares

i reach for you

grasping only thin air

unspoken words?

suppressed feelings?

uncompromising desire

...left unfulfilled

remembering you and i

our love, our laughter

wishing the song could be

...remixed...

did i leave a mark on your heart?

your silence brutalized mine

-2008

spring's renewal

patient time has arrived
and healing hasn't finished
new skin covering
my brutal scar
...soft...
...new...
sensitive
when you touch it
it tingles...
i can't decipher the difference between...
....new sensations and old pain

my insides are peeling

sunburnt soul molting

failed remedy

they're the tar in my lungs

the liquor in my liver

the pot stifling my brain

a concoction to numb

...with no relief.

two becomes three

...it is never enough.

clean me

my head, a pool before spring cleaning.

floating gunk and old leaves,

prevent water from gleaming.

stuck in perpetual doubt.

with thoughts i can't fully think

and words i can't wr(sp)it-e out.

nights start with a smoke and a drink,

to empty what labors my breath

and halts my scrawling ink.

temptress rhyme

i'm in the mood

for a heated seduction

to ease my mind

and relieve the tension

i'm in the mood

for a midnight fire

burning with passion

fueled with desire

i'm in the mood

for a morning sunrise

waking in your arms

heat between my thighs

i'm in the mood

for a taste of seclusion

to be with you

free from confusion

i'm in the mood

for a private rendezvous

giggling under covers

just me and you

feeling/writing like a 4th grader

nervous. anxious. excited.

mind lost in thought

stomach tied in knots

when i look into his eyes, i am lost

his hand slips into mind, i am found

i have a little crush

he smiles, i blush